sigh

my coworkers are awesome.. i really like these girls..

but they are so.. girly! at least by my estimation...

they are talking about earrings and shoes right now. which ok, it's not crazy but it's definitely not a conversation i'm going to get involved with.
meanwhile i'm completely at home talking with my boss about avatar and if i should get playon.tv

it just, happens quite a bit and makes me feel like a tomboy...LOL

winter

i love winter. The snow... the cold.. Xmas my sisters bday my bday.... It's just always been a celebratory, happy time.

But every time the first cold front comes in my lips get so irritated that I'm in pain for about two days. I know..."your lips??" yes. my lips. they become larger (if you can believe it) and redder...just painfully inflamed. I've tried everything. Tried every medicated chapstick out there. So I just sort of deal with it, whilst I whine...

for documentary purposes...photo to come...
-as soon as I figure out how to upload to this thing from my iPhone lol

geek

someone at work sent me this:


apart from the fact that it's awesome ;) , are they trying to tell me something?? hehehehe

can i go on vacation again?

i think there is something wrong here..

i was just off for about a week and still feel totally stressed and tired.

next time i'm taking off for 2 weeks in a row....anything less than that is just a tease.

:\

last meal

so lali posted this last meal thing..well.. posted it ages ago but anyway...she goes into so much detail that one can't help but to wonder about your own last meal.. and if you really could have it your way.. what would it be? who what and where?

so here goes.

the ideal last meal before kicking the bucket:

who'd be there:
Obviously my family..mom dad cyn marc vinny..jose luis would be there too... and it goes without saying...gavin..

where would we be:
our place

what would we have:
vinny would make his breaded chicken for the meat eaters and my mom would make her rice and black bean thing. gavin would make his kick ass guac and cyn and i would help with some tortillas de papa and salad..
we'd have some of our really nice red wine (pino)...we'd also have some 1979 riesling.. i know the food and drink combo isn't the best but it's MY last meal so i'll have whatever i want! :P
don't usually care for dessert but since it's my last meal we're talking about i'd like to have one last creme brulee.. really really burnt on top.
i'd have the sugar.. gav would have the creme :P

anything else:
this goes beyond 'last meal' and is really a 'last night' kind of thing.. but o well:
we'd all sit around and play telefunken and my dad would win...julio jaramillo in the background...
after a bottle or two of pinot noir my mom and i would be tispy enough to dance for a while.
everyone would leave to go home which since we're fantasizing here just happens to be on our block...
gav and i would get in bed and well.. you know... ;)

after that we'd play a last chess game with the bottle of Dom Perignon that we've been saving...
i'd tell him i love him...


don't know how i'd like to go.. definitely the next day sometime.. wake up..decide to go for a run and get hit by a car or something.. or something less painful heh

there... that would be the last meal/day :)

hrmm.. i really want tortillas de papa now.. heh

delgado

delgado travel...i've been going to these offices since i was born.
We'd head over to send packages, money or just to call. The 8 digits necessary to dial out pasted on the wall as if we all don't know it by heart already. My mom and cyn and i would cram into one of the booths and pass the phone around and my mom would get teary eyed when our phone call would coincide with a gathering. The family gathered together...except for her.

I remember being really sad to see my mom have to go to this place to talk to her family. Being so far away back before the internet the world felt like a very very big place. I remember thinking i was glad that i didn't have to do that. When I lived there it didn't seem so bad. Then again i was a teenager and i had my own little live to lead...you don't miss your parents when you're a rebellious teen...

Then my parents moved back.

It makes me so melancholy to go to one of these places now. I'll go into the booth, send them little packages (which take 3 weeks to get there). It seems like a cruel joke. They had to do this, they know how hard it is on this end.

And even with the internet with it's video chats and emails, the distance still feels very very large to me sometimes.

judy the fashionista?

So... if you know me you know that i am in no way a 'fashion girl'. I buy whats cheap...whats there...sometimes i'll even try something on.

But today a total stranger came up to me to say she liked my dress and wanted to know where i got it. Granted I am dressed rather girly today (dress AND heels!) but still!

So there you have it...took me being 4 months shy of my 30th birthday but turns out i can manage to dress myself up and look nice on normal days. I AM a girl!! woohoO! heh
On special occasions like my anniversary..a wedding.. something like that i tend to clean up nice but it's not a special occasion today. It's a random thursday! Not only that but on tuesday.. for no other reason than because i woke up early and saw it there i flat ironed my hair!!! Wasn't a birthday or party or anything....just 'cause!

So there you have it. I have become 'girly'. Well, in my estimation anyway. I still won't wear makeup or consider clothes shopping a fun activity. And yes...the combat boots are still getting used.

You know the fact that i'm gonna be 30 in December has been on my mind recently. I think it's pretty damn cool. I wasn't raised to be one of those girls that dread getting older.

And upon reflextion.. now that my 20's will be over, gotta say.. i can't really complain. Half of my 20's was spent with not much to be happy about...i was drifting..., the other half was happy. Hmmm exactly half actually....ha! You gotta love the symmetry :)

I'm not sure what i want to do for my actual bday though. I mean, other than the traditional activities which my bday can NOT be without. namely ice skating and a trip to grimaldi's for a pie.

We'll see.. plenty of time to plan. Speaking of planning.. it's august and i haven't started my Halloween costume yet!!!!

*pout*

Wow - i haven't written this much in a while... *shakes head* wonder what brought that on. :D

HOLY SHIT!!!!

I can't beleive this is on youtube! LOL

blast from the frakkin' past!

brilliant

ugh

so, what i've realized this weekend:

going out = getting drunk = sleeping till after 1pm = crazy hangover for most of the day = i'm still awake at 1230


i seriously can't hold my liquor anymore ...

books

so i just spent an hour listing books i own.

i stopped at a bit over a hundred...i need a new bookshelf :|

bookshelf

So...since the Harry Potter came out last weekend i decided to re-read all the books. 'Cause yes, I'm really 12. Anyway..now that that's over with i needed a new book to read.

So i went to my bookshelf and started to re-read something a little more appropriate to my age group. Picked up Geisha, a life.. but i read that one too recently so i put it down.. didn't really get sucked into the fortress of solitude or wicked so i landed on Stolen Continents.

Did it keep my interest? Yes. Is it a good and informative read? Yes. Is it fucking depressing (especially as a descendant of one of the cultures this book covers)? YES.

I've read this before.. i knew this would be a very sad history lesson, and yet it hit me over the head like a sledge hammer.

Sigh....

ugh

thighs.. sore.. pain.. calves...so much... ouchy!

I honestly can't wait until three days in a row of working out doesn't cause me to limp...

dammit

I forgot one annoying thing about short hair....

My hair grows fast. Already it's flipping up in the back when 3 weeks ago it wasn't.

fuck.

feeling nostalgic

listening to ladytron..

Hey can I go with you, my beauty number 2, my beauty number 2, his beauty number...


That pretty much sums up my relationships from the age of 16 to 25...sad innit?
Amazing how you relationships can either bring out the best or worst of your personality. I remember feeling that way, unworthy. It's amazing to look back on...so much time lost...

ha!

i think i'm morphing into :



ROFL!

:P

ride!

so this past weekend gavin and i went bike riding. not the normal bike riding though, we went 'mountain' biking. OK it wasn't a real mountain.. but it was rough bike trail.

we rented bikes and started simple on a nice paved bike route in a park. then we grabbed the bikes and went to a dirt trail we were told about. just like skiing they have the easy, medium and hard trails marked. we went for the easy one since I've never done anything like this.

holy...crap...

There were rocks and branches to ride over.. there were hills and not jumps really...but steep falls. This is a bike trail that our local bike shop helped build. So the trails are made for bikers. It was hard. We stopped a lot LOL .. but gavin was patient with me. I wish i would've taken more pics but i was busy trying not to fall.

After the hilly dirt ride we took the bikes and went to ride on another paved road...then we went to kings point by the water. 'Twas wicked. :)




Having a three day weekend was brilliant. We ended up staying home on monday and recovering. Telefunken in the sun room and (geek alert) playing witcher. Sigh.. i want more 3 day weekends....

sigh

So i had a bite of a bday cupcake at work this morning...only to find out that the red dye used was made from an insect.
Now, thankfully i had a bite and then threw it away before i found out...so it's not like a had a whole cupcake and was then told about the insect thing.

I tend to always watch what i eat.. check ingredient labels for gelatin and the like. But it occurs to me now that there are more and more ingredients (the kind with names you can't pronounce) that come from unexpected sources. I'm starting to think that my diet should become more on the natural side of things.
I'm not blaming my coworker for not telling me sooner.. i mean honestly it's not as if everyone thinks about these things all the time. Maybe i need to take it upon myself to be more aware of what goes into the items i consume. Either that or stick to fruits and vegetables to be on the safe side :\

camina....

anyone who knows me knows how much i love walking around the city.

I used to spend HOURS just roaming around the city...with no particular place to be or go...discover a new cafe...read a book in a park i hadn't been to before...eat at a restaurant i'd never tried.

Well, ever since gavin and i moved to the 'burbs i haven't really done that. Things have been hectic since last fall and only now seems to be slowing down.
So this weekend i walked. I wandered for hours...them met my mom and wandered some more...we had lunch a place we found...we talked and walked and laughed at how we both love and miss doing that.

Then i got home to gavin and was completely satisfied having had a relaxing Saturday with my mother in the city.

I know it's not exciting, it's not going to the tribeca film festival, or seeing a show, or gallery hopping or a club but somehow simply walking through the city was enough. I must remember to do that more often.

confession

i'm going shopping...on purpose.

i shall willingly go to stores and browse until i find the perfect items.. AND it's not even for a special occasion.

i know.. i know.. but i have to. why you ask? because summer is looming. no, it's not the allure of the perfect summer dress to frolic in the park with my sweety in. it's cause this time last year i was working at an art gallery. which meant that mini corduroy skirts, sneakers, and wife beaters were acceptable attire.

but now i'm in a corporate environment and i only have one pair of flats and they hurt. so off i go shop for clothes that i can wear to work.


pray for me to survive the smell of nasty perfume that lurks in department stores, to come out alive among the sale rack...to not scream when all i see is fusia.

le sigh