I don't like going out to clubs alone anymore. Used to be a time when i would be out three or four night a week....didn't matter that i was going alone...because when i got there.. i felt at ease. Dancing.. drinking and being social... there were always people i knew.. people that i was happy to see and people that were happy to see me..
On sat i decided to go out with my sister and brother in law to the one year anniversary of Nacotheque. After a few hours of feeling like the third wheel they left and i was left to my own devices.
There was no one to converse to. I saw a few people i knew, but it seems like all the people i used to have fun with.. dance...drink and all that...it's like i was no longer welcome because i don't go out every weekend anymore.
I felt out of place.. slightly bored and generally annoyed that i hadn't planned this outing of mine better...that i hadn't called my friends ahead of time to make sure they'd be out so i wasn't so alone.
So i called the one person i knew would be around, kross.
I jet to rated x and for the first time all night actually feel welcome. He managed to put me at ease and even though I don't go out except for special occasions now-a-days he was the same old kross... aways welcoming...always friendly.
thank you kross!
Oh, and of course i saw Andy. Another friend who it was a relief to see. Unfortunately by the time he came i was all ready to call it a night.
I consider myself a pretty friendly person..generally outgoing. But it seems that's not enough in the "club scene". You have to be a constant presence otherwise .. you don't count. Which i understand...but as someone who works promoting these nights.. and used to be.. i guess what you would call a club rat..it was a bit of a reality check when i found myself feeling out of place.
But now that i know.. i know that i should for my own sake not venture into the club world alone anymore.
My club rat days are over.
